Closing the "blog"

Or whatever you want to call it. Compared to the ones I used to have, this is just a scrap-paper pile. Rereading my old entries make me cringe and scroll forward. That says enough.

I've realized that there are two different types of people in the world. Those who actively take part in their own emotional development, and those who sit back and let it come to them (or, possibly regress from it). Those who actively take part are always about growing, getting better, getting stronger. Once a flaw is recognized, they take steps to observe it, consider it, and if possible, correct it. They put themselves in positions where they can grow in maturity, or excel at something, to move on to the next step.

Those who let it come to them... I don't know, really. I'm just figuring this out. But the differences seem to be set into our bones, and very hard to break, if possible at all. For all I know, it could be in our genetic makeup (I compare myself to my brother all the time, and our habits reflect our opposite parents), it could be in our environment (which, if consistent throughout the forming of self, is pretty much permanent). But it's made me think twice about succumbing to my urges to give advice, lecture, get frustrated at, etc. Sometimes people just can't. It's unfathomable, and reaching for something is a process more than an impulse. I have to forgive them that.

I can't expect everyone to be like me. I can't expect someone to nod at an opportunity or solution and immediately grasp at it, because their thought process doesn't immediately follow the idea of taking the next step. It never did. Who am I to demand that from them?

Moving on. Ta,

PS: The Habit is pretty much removed from my core. I'm down to barely revisiting it, and even when I do, I don't want to anymore. Quitting is a process too, and I'm very very done with him. Our souls recognized each other and fit; it's a pity that we weren't able to do the same. Oh well, what can I do.